Which is where I'm going today. If you want more sex, try here.
Part of my journey with being a survivor is my fantasies.
I have dark fantasies. Control, abuse, rape, force, inappropriate age differences. Stuff that outside those moments, that are vile.
I seek out these topics or create them in my head. And after I'm done with them, I feel incredibly guilty.
I don't write a lot about cunnilingus, because I have a strong aversion to the act. It was forced upon me by an ex. I really didn't know how to say no.
I love sex. I love writing about sex. I still have some things to work through.
That being said. I do have a spanking scene to write. I have to try to keep the characters in conflict, not just having a lot of sex.
That being said. I do have a spanking scene to write. I have to try to keep the characters in conflict, not just having a lot of sex.
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Thank you for the Twitter mention. You are right, we really have been thinking along similar lines lately. After I finished writing the Ariel Castro post I spent the month trying to figure out whether my emotional masochism is self-destructive. I finally concluded that I need a balanced diet of porn/fantasies or aftercare to feel good about my kink, but I'm not sure everyone will reach the same conclusion.
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